Given Away pt. 2

well apeariently i was thinking about that thought for a while cause its been ten days now.

To pick up where i left off though, I have invested into things that I myself have deemed to be good, and things that other people tell me are good. for instance, there is a part of me that wanted to go into the movie industry, write movies, act in movies, direct them. I didn't follow this dream however because people have told me that it is really hard to break into this scene. So instead I am becoming a computer engineer because it is smarter as a degree. I still plan on following my dreams to own a company and make media in the form of games, but if that fails i have a backup plan, or backup degree more like it. My mind doesn't drift towards the idea of failure very often so i don't really have a back up plan, just the degree.

This is an investment that I have made, not really because it is the one that i really wanted but because it was the next best choice. this makes me wonder what might have been had i decided to follow what i really wanted to. Now when I look at that i don't really get to sad because computer engineering was a very close second for me, possibly a tie between what i really wanted to do. for some people this is not the case though, we give ourselves up because it is that smart thing to do, but in the end we have a person that is smart, yes, but is that person happy.

outside of career choices, for those are not as important as this, we give our selves up for the sake of popularity. now you're sitting there saying, "I never did that". I think if you look hard enough you have, in fact if you haven't, you probably have no friends:) For real though i mean that, because to a certain extent we have to tone ourselves down for others just so they can stay sain. If i didn't do this i would probably complain about the latest Apple product and how its worthless all the time. No one wants to hear that. So I tone myself down, I invest in a less "in yo face" version of me. This is not a problem, it is a necessity. the time where this becomes a problem is when we invest so much into someone that we aren't that we forget who we are. So here is what I'm aiming at with this one. Yes we have to tone ourselves down. We do not need to change who we are though, big difference. Sure the sports players might end up with more friends then your geeky crew of four, but you know what, you'll be more happy with your geeky little group than you'll ever be with a group of people you're not. case closed, sport yourself, love yourself, be comfortable with who you are. Thats what people really care about, you want friends, be genuine and you'll have more friends then you can count. wow this is a run on paragraph.

so invest in yourself, do whats smart but take a risk every now and then. don't end up in an office because thats where people want you. Anheuser had it right when they said, "Live life responsibly". be smart, but for sanities sake have fun the right ways. the ways you know to be innocently fun, not guilty pleasures.