well apeariently i was thinking about that thought for a while cause its been ten days now.
To pick up where i left off though, I have invested into things that I myself have deemed to be good, and things that other people tell me are good. for instance, there is a part of me that wanted to go into the movie industry, write movies, act in movies, direct them. I didn't follow this dream however because people have told me that it is really hard to break into this scene. So instead I am becoming a computer engineer because it is smarter as a degree. I still plan on following my dreams to own a company and make media in the form of games, but if that fails i have a backup plan, or backup degree more like it. My mind doesn't drift towards the idea of failure very often so i don't really have a back up plan, just the degree.
This is an investment that I have made, not really because it is the one that i really wanted but because it was the next best choice. this makes me wonder what might have been had i decided to follow what i really wanted to. Now when I look at that i don't really get to sad because computer engineering was a very close second for me, possibly a tie between what i really wanted to do. for some people this is not the case though, we give ourselves up because it is that smart thing to do, but in the end we have a person that is smart, yes, but is that person happy.
outside of career choices, for those are not as important as this, we give our selves up for the sake of popularity. now you're sitting there saying, "I never did that". I think if you look hard enough you have, in fact if you haven't, you probably have no friends:) For real though i mean that, because to a certain extent we have to tone ourselves down for others just so they can stay sain. If i didn't do this i would probably complain about the latest Apple product and how its worthless all the time. No one wants to hear that. So I tone myself down, I invest in a less "in yo face" version of me. This is not a problem, it is a necessity. the time where this becomes a problem is when we invest so much into someone that we aren't that we forget who we are. So here is what I'm aiming at with this one. Yes we have to tone ourselves down. We do not need to change who we are though, big difference. Sure the sports players might end up with more friends then your geeky crew of four, but you know what, you'll be more happy with your geeky little group than you'll ever be with a group of people you're not. case closed, sport yourself, love yourself, be comfortable with who you are. Thats what people really care about, you want friends, be genuine and you'll have more friends then you can count. wow this is a run on paragraph.
so invest in yourself, do whats smart but take a risk every now and then. don't end up in an office because thats where people want you. Anheuser had it right when they said, "Live life responsibly". be smart, but for sanities sake have fun the right ways. the ways you know to be innocently fun, not guilty pleasures.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Given Away
Just moments ago I was reading my speech book when a thought came into my head, and it refuses to leave until I write it down.
We give ourselves away to so many things in life, whether we realize it or not we are constantly investing ourself into things. Our future, our habits, our friends, family, and Romantic interests. this thought at first saddened me because at some point in time I will have given so much of myself away that I am no longer myself. I was thinking of it as a one way exchange, I give and give until there is nothing left and I'm left as a shallow hull of a man.
It didn't take me very long realize that this was not exactly how it worked. It is more like a stock market, I invest in things for a future, whether I am looking for a quick return or a long term investment depends on the situation. Take a daily conversation for instance, I might simply agree with the person or go along with whatever they are talking about(an investment of sorts) for the hope of a short return in the form of my relationship with that person changing for the better. Or for a more long term investment one could look at a relationship with a girlfriend (or I suppose for girls this would be your boyfriend). I will invest a large part of myself into any relationship with a girlfriend because my ultimate goal with any girlfriend is marriage. This is a long term investment that has a lot of myself in it, whether thats good or bad I'll save for another time but either way I give a large portion of myself to that person.
This thought gave me peace because Its easy to think of life this way, once the stock market goes bad( i.e. a relationship) I can simply sell the stock and get over with it. But it doesn't work like this, there is much more to it. there is a stock portfolio of sorts, it keeps track of all of the things we have invested in and the world can see this portfolio. so when i simply go along with a conversation with the mentality of a quick turn around, it leaves a mark on the record that people will see as something that I believe in. this can be an interesting thing because although I know that conversation really didn't mean a whole lot other people make their judgments on my personality based on my portfolio of previous investments. this is turn will lead them to believe that this is what I like to talk about so when they come ad talk to me they will talk about this or that subject based on what my portfolio says I have liked to talk about(invested in) in the past. this will lead to more people believing this certain thing about me even though its not true, but when people believe something about you, you begin to believe that about yourself(I suppose this is where this whole idea relates to Speech, because this is one of our theories.)
aside from the previous point I like the analogy of the stock market for another reason. In the stock market you invest in things that are smart to do, you want to make money after all. often times we do not know what to really invest in so we invest into what we are told to invest into, why do you think that advertising is such a huge thing? these kinds of decisions stretch from things like careers to how we handle ourselves in love to what we want to eat that day. this is the part where I really had to slow down and ponder. What have I invested myself into? better yet, what have I allowed to tell me what to invest in?
I guess I'm going to have to come back to this.
We give ourselves away to so many things in life, whether we realize it or not we are constantly investing ourself into things. Our future, our habits, our friends, family, and Romantic interests. this thought at first saddened me because at some point in time I will have given so much of myself away that I am no longer myself. I was thinking of it as a one way exchange, I give and give until there is nothing left and I'm left as a shallow hull of a man.
It didn't take me very long realize that this was not exactly how it worked. It is more like a stock market, I invest in things for a future, whether I am looking for a quick return or a long term investment depends on the situation. Take a daily conversation for instance, I might simply agree with the person or go along with whatever they are talking about(an investment of sorts) for the hope of a short return in the form of my relationship with that person changing for the better. Or for a more long term investment one could look at a relationship with a girlfriend (or I suppose for girls this would be your boyfriend). I will invest a large part of myself into any relationship with a girlfriend because my ultimate goal with any girlfriend is marriage. This is a long term investment that has a lot of myself in it, whether thats good or bad I'll save for another time but either way I give a large portion of myself to that person.
This thought gave me peace because Its easy to think of life this way, once the stock market goes bad( i.e. a relationship) I can simply sell the stock and get over with it. But it doesn't work like this, there is much more to it. there is a stock portfolio of sorts, it keeps track of all of the things we have invested in and the world can see this portfolio. so when i simply go along with a conversation with the mentality of a quick turn around, it leaves a mark on the record that people will see as something that I believe in. this can be an interesting thing because although I know that conversation really didn't mean a whole lot other people make their judgments on my personality based on my portfolio of previous investments. this is turn will lead them to believe that this is what I like to talk about so when they come ad talk to me they will talk about this or that subject based on what my portfolio says I have liked to talk about(invested in) in the past. this will lead to more people believing this certain thing about me even though its not true, but when people believe something about you, you begin to believe that about yourself(I suppose this is where this whole idea relates to Speech, because this is one of our theories.)
aside from the previous point I like the analogy of the stock market for another reason. In the stock market you invest in things that are smart to do, you want to make money after all. often times we do not know what to really invest in so we invest into what we are told to invest into, why do you think that advertising is such a huge thing? these kinds of decisions stretch from things like careers to how we handle ourselves in love to what we want to eat that day. this is the part where I really had to slow down and ponder. What have I invested myself into? better yet, what have I allowed to tell me what to invest in?
I guess I'm going to have to come back to this.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Awesome Lord Most High
Do we sit by, see people cry, and let people die?
with all of the turmoil of our world, we sit by and watch.
What can we do? We are not perfect we are unclean.
Yet is there something we can do to ween our culture off of its reliant pain?
Reliant pain I say because we seem to be one with pain, enjoy pain, laugh at pain.
After all, Bad things make news right?
Conversations generally start negatively, yet i can't understand how i could possibly be a negative person.
Gossip fuels every day talk, but how do rumors start?
i must be better than you, I know it because i am special, and hence, if I'm not better than you surely my lies will be.
How did we get here?
Better yet how do we get out?
Am i a bad person because i fail once a week?
Surely i am because the good people are good once a week, and they are saved.
The world was formed in seven days and one to fall apart.
But in one day the savior came and victory is won.
Now this was long ago but long after where is salvation?
Salvation rests in the saved, placed there by a king, not locked away and not secured but placed for all to see.
For all to see, there one can take, so secret I shall make.
Yet in the secret none can see what none could take. Two 's' words with two meanings.
Secret and secure.
For the later is not dependent on the first, it is dependent on the king.
the king sits high, there secure our salvation lies, for all to see.
A fragrance kept in a box, is a very regular box, all boxes hold a fragrance.
Yet a fragrance on a stand is unique and impactfull. so let your fragrance of salvation set on a stand, for there the world will see and long.
For the turmoils of here to be dead and done.
The world is in our hearts, is it in turmoil or salvation.
with all of the turmoil of our world, we sit by and watch.
What can we do? We are not perfect we are unclean.
Yet is there something we can do to ween our culture off of its reliant pain?
Reliant pain I say because we seem to be one with pain, enjoy pain, laugh at pain.
After all, Bad things make news right?
Conversations generally start negatively, yet i can't understand how i could possibly be a negative person.
Gossip fuels every day talk, but how do rumors start?
i must be better than you, I know it because i am special, and hence, if I'm not better than you surely my lies will be.
How did we get here?
Better yet how do we get out?
Am i a bad person because i fail once a week?
Surely i am because the good people are good once a week, and they are saved.
The world was formed in seven days and one to fall apart.
But in one day the savior came and victory is won.
Now this was long ago but long after where is salvation?
Salvation rests in the saved, placed there by a king, not locked away and not secured but placed for all to see.
For all to see, there one can take, so secret I shall make.
Yet in the secret none can see what none could take. Two 's' words with two meanings.
Secret and secure.
For the later is not dependent on the first, it is dependent on the king.
the king sits high, there secure our salvation lies, for all to see.
A fragrance kept in a box, is a very regular box, all boxes hold a fragrance.
Yet a fragrance on a stand is unique and impactfull. so let your fragrance of salvation set on a stand, for there the world will see and long.
For the turmoils of here to be dead and done.
The world is in our hearts, is it in turmoil or salvation.
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